Wednesday, December 29, 2010

wobble

When I haven't written for awhile, my words feel so wobbly. Like the handlebars of a bike that I'm riding for the first time in years, except that the lack of coordination is intellectual. I force myself to the end of each sentence, regardless of how poorly written it might be. I convince myself I just need to get the ideas down. But later, after I have saved the document and closed the screen, I lay awake in bed, fearful that I will die in my sleep, and this horrible piece of crap will be the last thing that I ever wrote.